to baby or not to baby.

So, this is a raw and vulnerable subject for me. I've never blogged about this part of my life, and I don't talk about it much. Society puts so much on us to be successful by a certain age. Marry by a certain age and have children by a certain age. Since the age of 16 I've been living out my dreams career wise, found and married my best friend before I was thirty. So, I didn't think there would be so much pressure to procreate. But alas, it does come from all angles. 

I guess the reason why I've decided to put it out there is because I want those who get to know me, to know all of me. I want to help people on my health journey and a big part of that is the hormonal issues and anxiety issues that have kept me from diving full on into the adventure that is starting a family. Maybe in the process I can even connect to moms who have been through some of this.

When I started seeing my Naturopath a couple years ago, I was a brand-spanking-new-newlywed and travel and getting healthy were on my mind. I brought up the fact that we wanted a family, but she said that with all of my gut imbalance issues I would need to work on repairing and cleansing for at least a year before that would be a possibility,

So a year went by, and now almost two,  I started to see vast improvments through my diet over the course of these last two years but I recently came to find out that my hormones are kind of out of whack. Oh, joy. YAY. 

I visited with an OBGYN who specializies in Ostepathic health and she wanted to have me test my ovulation cycles each month to make sure everything was working properly. And the good news was this little face that I've seen repeatedly pop up showing that I'm "peaking" for ovulation...

I started homeopathic hormone tinctures recently, and move on to actual hormone support this month. Hoping that God is leading us on a journey to having a little family of our own... in the mean time I will stay faithful in prayer, and take care of this one body He's blessed me with until a little can call it home. Next stop: overcoming fear of actually birthing said human. Any moms out there who dealt with birth anxiety or hormone issues, I'd love to hear your inspiring stories. :)